Tuesday, January 10, 2012

a few thoughts

So last night, Andrew and I took our "before" pictures. He wants to lose 20 pounds. I want to lose a few more. Like 40 more. My goal seems so far away, so right now, I'm taking it 10 pounds at a time. When that ten pounds is gone, I'll go for the next, until I can finally feel comfortable and confident again!

Now that my mind is made up, I'm so pumped and excited to see results! Every time I think about eating more than I should or eating something that isn't worth the calories, I think about how badly I want this. I think about how confident and happy I was when I was thinner!

I've also been thinking about what I'm in control of and what I can't control. I decided that there is so much in my life that I'm not in control of right  now- my job, my fertility, etc, and if there is ONE thing I CAN control, it's my weight.

After dinner tonight, I went for a jog. I warmed up and then started. The first 15 seconds or so were great! I thought, "This isn't as bad as I thought it would be..." and then my heart rate started pounding and I was gasping for air. I told myself I had to keep going, and I did. I ran the whole length of the street I was jogging on (probably only 1/8 of a mile, but still) and walked fast when I got to the corner and for the rest of the way. It's a small accomplishment, but I made myself do it. It was hard, but I ran it! Woo hoo!I can't wait until I can run the WHOLE time like I used to years ago- 3 miles of running without stopping! I'll get there!

What are your goals? What motivates you?


The Marquardt Family said...

Shan. When I was going through CRAP that I could not control I felt the same way about my weight. It is very satisfying when you can control SOMETHING is your life. I am so proud of you. You can do it! I say SOUTH BEACH for me in April. NO carbs (unless good carbs) and no sugar. The hardest thing I have ever done but it WORKS! Glad you are pumped! I am cheering for you!!!! Love you girl. xoxo

Ron from NJ said...

My goal is to one day (I haven't come up with a realistic time frame yet) be close to, if not under, 200 pounds. That is the easy part. The part I can't seem to figure out is what will motivate me. I am working on it. Hopefully you will get lots of comments and one of them will help me. Good Luck!

Karlie said...

My goal is to maintain while I am pregnant. And my motivation are my before picture from before I lost the 75 pounds last year. I can never go back there.